There Aren’t Enough Sunday Song Titles/It’s Now Monday-Monday Anyway.

364 in draft

2700 in fiction

5409 accrued

8473 Grand total.

More than halfway there, and that’s a good feeling. I’m really surprised at this week’s fiction output. I hadn’t planned on it, it just popped in to visit one day, and what else can you do with that except roll with it?

And you know, the more I do it the more I realize what my main problem is getting longer pieces of fiction finished. It’s not momentum or interest (or lack thereof), it that I tell myself the story in big scene chunks, and then have no fucking clue how to stitch the big pieces into a finished quilt. And after so long of trying I just chuck it and go on to something else.

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One unexpected thing I’m learning from the check-in is no matter how much I want to embrace the social aspect of it, I can’t get past being a big ball of fail. I swear I’ve forgotten how to social. I read a good portion of the check-in posts, but when I try to follow through with the comment aspect I kind of freeze (same thing on the fb page). It’s just not a fast, simple thing, leaving a comment  on any kind of piece. Even answering comments on my own, I suck at it, it takes me forever, and I just don’t have forever to spend on the commenting. It’s the age old dilemma — do we live in the moment, or live-blog the moment  Do I write, or write about writing?

Which is the long way to say I really wish I was better at connecting with everyone doing the challenge. Maybe that can be part of the goals next round.

Optimistic – Sunday Check-in

I keep missing the Wednesday check-in, so I think I’m going to just make a point to ignore it for a while. Once a week is going to have to do.

I wonder too if has anything to do with not getting a whole lot of writing done? I’m still fighting with the crud and finding the fucks to give takes more energy than I can spare.

I did get a couple of things written this week, so it’s not a total bust. Nothing for P-Mag yet — my struggle there is a constant hectoring voice that I just don’t have anything relevant to say to the readers. I can’t pretend to be a journalist, so what am I doing there?

See? I’m doing it again, letting doubt creep in and stain up my thoughts. Not good.

Anyway, word count is up to 5409, which still has me almost a full week ahead of schedule. Yay.

Now if I can just get everything else in line I’ll be golden.

Sunday Morning Coming Down – Check Point

A round of Words in 80 DaysI’ll be honest I didn’t even look for a check in Wednesday. Nor have I managed to reply to the messages left on my last check-in post. It’s been a long week, complete with a couple of bugs going through the house. We aren’t just getting sick, we’re getting sick, getting better, and then getting sick again. Blech. The good news is it all seems to be swerving away from the little guy. A thousand cheers for that.

The other good news is even with all the crap going on and around, I’m still managing to stay in the groove. I can’t count it all — a lot has been over on my personal blogger account — but that’s ok. I think I’m still good with word count.

Let’s see. I should be around 2,800. I’m at … holy fuck.

4,179

Two weeks in and I’m a quarter of the way there.

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I even hit on my not-official goal — a big chunk of that word count is a piece running Thursday at Perspehone. Plus I’ve been keeping up with my personal blog. Ok, mostly keeping up, I did take two days off, but I’m still going to count it as a win.

I’ll be honest I need all the wins I can get. I need a success. I need this to be a success. I’m slowing starting to realize just how far away  I am from where I want to be. That sucks but it’s fixable, you know? So long as I keep going I’ll get there.

But it’s a long strange trip, and sometimes it’s a hard one as well, and if I don’t get some blue ribbons along the way I’m very likely to just say fuck it.

So when I start thinking I’m Billy Badass and should just move the goal bar up a bit, I’m going to talk myself out of it. I can’t claim success until I hit the goal, so maybe I should just get there first – then I can break my arm patting myself on the back.

Until then, I’m just going to keep moving.

Sunday Check-In

A round of Words in 80 DaysI’m still not sure if I love or hate how close together the check-points are. Right now I love it because I always come off the line accelerating hard. I may not have been a very busy bee right here at M&S, but I have two pieces on the schedule next week at Persephone. I won’t cross-post them here, but fucking a, I damn sure will count them. Which makes my running count very comfortably in the black.

2,548/16,000

I can actually take most of the next week off if I want. The way the last couple of days have gone I just might need to, but … you know, it’s really not that hard to pick a random noun from my head — or the internet — and bang out 200 words. So even if I do one or two this week I’m that much further ahead.

I have to admit it’s so much easier to write when it’s merely padding the lead rather than struggling to hit last place.

From the Beginning

I’ll be honest, the only reason I’m switching to Word Press is the word count at the bottom of this. I hate having to write in Word just to get a word count, c+p always seems to bite me in the ass. So here I am, with yet another motherfucking blog, I collect them like some people collect dolls.

But in a way … I didn’t so much like the idea of stuffing ROW80 writing in among the tarot cards and personal angst. This will be writing and that will be journaling and what’s one more blog to keep up with?

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So my starting goal for this first session of A Round of Words in 80 Days  is 16,000 by the end date, March 28. 200 words a day is pretty easy, but I know there will be days I can’t/won’t/just-have-no-fucks-to-give — which means some days that 200 becomes 400. Or 600.

If I can pull this rabbit out of my ass in record time, all I have to do is reset my goal upwards. I’d like to think I’ll be doing that very thing, but let’s be honest here, I’ll be fucking grateful if I just don’t have to reset downwards. I’m fully prepared to do that, but I sure hope I don’t have to.

So hey I’m at 21o right now, and I could stop for the day, but I might as well add to the word count just a little by laying out my plans a bit more.

I had initially planned that any and all writing would count, even the daily tarot posts and such over at Blogger, but how about instead I only count what’s here at WP – and why not make it straight expository? My initial reaction to that thought was “but what will I write about??” … but then I thought about the fact that I’m on the goddamn internet, and writing prompts can be found everywhere. So why not utilize them when I’m having trouble finding shit to write about?

One of my unstated goals is I hope to produce a piece once a week or so for Persephone Magazine. I’m a writer there, although I feel guilty saying that because I’m not professional and consistent. But I’d like to be, and I’d like this challenge to help me achieve that.

Ok, so anyway, it’s 1:20 am and I’d actually like to sneak in a bit if meditation tonight/this morning. I’ll be back tomorrow with something less bloggish.

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